When Sadness Descends

May is hard. May 12, 2016 my daughter died. A year later, May 22nd, my husband died. Late April this year my cousin’s husband died.

I have friends with serious health issues. I’m losing my energy. I’m losing my relevance in this crazy world of AI and social media.
I’m losing confidence that I can know what is really going on even with 24/7 news. There’s sadness seeing the promotion of violence, the lack of care for the earth and the disrespect for life (human and otherwise) on this planet.

When I try to ignore the sadness, it turns into anger that I project out. I know better but it’s been hard for me to cry it out these days.

May is hard. Yet life, like a river, keeps flowing with it’s losses, gains, and inevitable change.

Just writing this helps me. I exhale and settle into this moment, acknowledging what is for me right now. I’ll let the smile come when it will.

Settling down…I am noticing I am just fine. I’ll let the smile come when it will.

MLK

“On April 3, 1968, the night before the Reverend Doctor Martin Luther King Jr. was assassinated by a white supremacist, he gave a speech in support of sanitation workers in Memphis, Tennessee.

Dr. King told the audience that if God had let him choose any era in which to live, he would have chosen the one in which he had landed. “Now, that’s a strange statement to make,” King went on, “because the world is all messed up. The nation is sick. Trouble is in the land; confusion all around…. But I know, somehow, that only when it is dark enough, can you see the stars.” Dr. King said that he felt blessed to live in an era when people had finally woken up and were working together for freedom and economic justice. ” from Heather Cox Richardson’s Letters from an American, Jan. 18, 2026

We have a ways to go, but may we work together for freedom, economic justice and the awareness that we are in this together as one. Love thy neighbor as thyself. Learn to love yourself.

Holidays

… Bob Dylan, in a 1960 interview with Rolling Stone*, 28-years-old and already looking back sagely:
“Boy, I hurried… I hurried for a long time. I’m sorry I did. All the time you’re hurrying, you’re not really as aware as you should be. You’re trying to make things happen instead of just letting it happen. You follow me?”

It’s Christmas! People are scurrying to buy last minute presents, fit in all the family and friend gatherings, attend concerts and church events, and deal with the crazy weather predictions.

Slowing down and letting it happen might be a challenge but it may also be the answer to enjoying the Holidays. Letting yourself be more aware of and present to your experience.

Slowing down as in noticing your breathing. Slowing down as in tasting that cookie you’re eating. Relaxing, knowing you’ll get to the next place in perfect time. Slowing down and smiling at those around you.

My wish for you: May your Holidays unfold in perfect peace, with love, and anchored in the knowing that it is all happening perfectly.

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Stillness

Words don’t come
Ideas flow through
Then there is silence

There is a space
A quiet stillness
It just is

So different from
The stories, the doings
It’s hard to share

Yet it is who I am right now

From this place of stillness
Need to listen
To connect

My journey continues. I’m learning to be comfortable with stillness; to not feel I have to talk about what’s going on, current or past. It works better when I allow a the words to “arise or not” when I’m with someone. I learning that questions can be more connecting then statements of what I’ve done. I’m not good at asking questions yet. But I will be.

Ode to Love

What’s love got to do with it?
Old Tina asked
You know,

when I‘m
running my hand down
your soft back, relaxing, sighing
while you gently purr.

when I‘m
crying, reading
about someone
hurt, attacked, Dehumanized…

when I‘m
looking at the sky, jaw dropped
at the everyday awesomeness
of changing clouds and sun

when I‘m
feeling Joyful at seeing
a crown of purple violets
growing in the middle of the first snow

when I‘m
showing up and
holding the space
for you to do the same

What’s love got to do with it?
Everything!

To love!
Our connection
Our Life

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This moment

In this moment I am
Angry, grieving, scared

I breath and center
I am fine

But then it starts again

I wasn’t prepared for the
insensitivity, hatred, fear mongering

I doubt if that’s even possible

I’m older and the significance of that
Is now sinking in

Embodying older not just knowing about it

Time to put to the test what I say I believe:
Oneness, love, sacredness of this moment

Accept, listen, trust, focus on the good

I am responsible for the energy I bring into this world. And so it is!

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Now is the time to anchor!

In the whirlwind of change
Stand tall
Root in the Earth
Breath into your heart
Feel inward.

From this place
Open your eyes
And see.

When drawn out of yourself by another’s fears, the events, pain of the world, pull back into your own center.

Your gift to the world is you
Rooted in what is true.
Your inner knowing
Connected to the Universal Truth.

Cultivate presence, meditate, contemplate life, pray, dance, sing, walk in nature…..
Now is the time.

Be Here Now

So you’re here
What good is it
if you’re unhappy
Be present
This seems
the first step

But then, what’s next?

Accept what is
Stop fighting it, judging it, telling stories about it

Notice what you’re feeling
Where in your body do you feel it?
How do you feel about you when you’re feeling this?
Listen to your inner voice
Let it occur to you,
what’s mine to do?

Release
Breath, move, yell, dance….

So simple
So hard

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My Intention for the World

It’s hard to hear the news and not go down the rabbit hole of things you don’t agree with, are fearful of, or get angry at. What you focus on you tend to create and attract more of. Focusing on what you don’t want only gives it power.
So, I’ve been asking myself what do I want for the world. Here it is:

Intention for the World

There is only one God, one Life flowing through each of us, through every animal, bird, tree, mountain, the ocean, sky, the Earth, the Universe.

We and our leaders have a reverence for all life.

Everyone’s personal freedom is honored.

We find ways to live with diversity, knowing it is an expression of our love for who we are, the source of creativity, and the way we each express our purpose here on earth.

Love is our motivator. We seek wisdom not just knowledge.

We understand we are all connected, interdependent and seek to understand the nature and laws of the Universe. We collaborate.

We actively support the health and well-being of everyone, all ages.

We find creative ways to help all people find their own power, purpose and agency.

Everyone has healthy food, clean water and air, clothing and shelter.

We measure our success by the level of happiness, peace and joy we embody and share with others.

This is my intention. I focus on it every morning. And then ask the Universe, “What is mine to do?” What is yours?

How You See

Humor me and look at this picture. What do you see? What is it? What could it be?

When a friend and I first saw this earring, it looked like a tiny figure with big ears.
Or maybe, I thought, a ceremonial figure with a headdress on.
“Odd choice for an earring,“ we thought.

Then, I turned it.

Suddenly, it looked like a rabbit. We laughed.
Which is right? Maybe either. Maybe neither.

What you think is dependent on your sensory input and experience. What you see depends on how and from where you’re viewing it. Your thoughts are limited by your perspective. It is not the whole truth. If we could remember this maybe we could stay curious.

And maybe we might learn something.