May is hard. May 12, 2016 my daughter died. A year later, May 22nd, my husband died. Late April this year my cousin’s husband died.
I have friends with serious health issues. I’m losing my energy. I’m losing my relevance in this crazy world of AI and social media.
I’m losing confidence that I can know what is really going on even with 24/7 news. There’s sadness seeing the promotion of violence, the lack of care for the earth and the disrespect for life (human and otherwise) on this planet.
When I try to ignore the sadness, it turns into anger that I project out. I know better but it’s been hard for me to cry it out these days.
May is hard. Yet life, like a river, keeps flowing with it’s losses, gains, and inevitable change.
Just writing this helps me. I exhale and settle into this moment, acknowledging what is for me right now. I’ll let the smile come when it will.
Settling down…I am noticing I am just fine. I’ll let the smile come when it will.
Powerfully, beautifully, solutionally written, Barbara. Perhaps, deep down, your inner teacher is guiding you. Perhaps? I’m holding you with love in great light and goodness.
Oh my that’s lovely. Resonates. Acceptance can be the hardest task; easier. it seems, to fight the reality. The consequence of fighting is more exhaustion, more anger and more sadness. Why is this lesson so hard to sink into my bones? Settle in – aaaahhhhh.
❤️
Yes. Settling down.
I feel sad reading your revelation and also connected. Loneliness is epidemic. Being present in the moment and feeling my own heart centers me and I am with my own Being/ consciousness. So the sadness becomes a presence in my consciousness and can speak to me when I ask the question. You know what the question is, Barbara. Ironically I stop feeling lonely and get inspired to act or accept something. And finally my dear friend, you will NEVER be irrelevant. AI cannot replace IAM
Your wisdom and experience will always be relevant and valuable to me. Thank you for sharing through the years, Barbara.
Much Love to you, my friend. Thank you for sharing your heart.
Grief is a sneaky fellow. I woke up yesterday feeling like it was Day 1. As the day progressed I felt my heart open to love and crowd out the grief. Some days it works better than others. I was told that grief doesn’t get smaller but your world gets bigger so it doesn’t take up as much space.