May is hard. May 12, 2016 my daughter died. A year later, May 22nd, my husband died. Late April this year my cousin’s husband died.
I have friends with serious health issues. I’m losing my energy. I’m losing my relevance in this crazy world of AI and social media.
I’m losing confidence that I can know what is really going on even with 24/7 news. There’s sadness seeing the promotion of violence, the lack of care for the earth and the disrespect for life (human and otherwise) on this planet.
When I try to ignore the sadness, it turns into anger that I project out. I know better but it’s been hard for me to cry it out these days.
May is hard. Yet life, like a river, keeps flowing with it’s losses, gains, and inevitable change.
Just writing this helps me. I exhale and settle into this moment, acknowledging what is for me right now. I’ll let the smile come when it will.
Settling down…I am noticing I am just fine. I’ll let the smile come when it will.
