Who am I?

I am many things
Don’t put me in a bucket of you’re choosing
I am diverse, a little bit of a lot of things

I seek the truth wherever it lies
The truth about I like and don’t like

Even when I don’t like what I’m seeing
Even about me
I am that too

It’s easier to attach and be one thing,
to believe strongly in one thing.

But easy doesn’t reflect my true self,
nor the diversity of all things
So I am grateful.

With every change
Inner and outer

I grow more aware, knowing
I am
We are

One

In honor of the anniversary of my birth.

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Time Change

I gained an extra hour today
Where did it go?

Life speeds by
It’s not about keeping up.

“Love doesn’t require outcomes
just presence”*

“I’m willing to be present
and be God’s love in the world,
however God calls me to”**

Maybe it’s that simple
Even though it’s that hard

More and more I’m listening to my inner voice, and as I do, I find life flows and there is greater peace. I like that.

*from a talk by Dr, Corey Cockerill, President of Wilmington College
**from the Body Prayer of Julian of Norwich

Stillness

Words don’t come
Ideas flow through
Then there is silence

There is a space
A quiet stillness
It just is

So different from
The stories, the doings
It’s hard to share

Yet it is who I am right now

From this place of stillness
Need to listen
To connect

My journey continues. I’m learning to be comfortable with stillness; to not feel I have to talk about what’s going on, current or past. It works better when I allow a the words to “arise or not” when I’m with someone. I learning that questions can be more connecting then statements of what I’ve done. I’m not good at asking questions yet. But I will be.

Independence Day

Be free
Release your judgments that trap you
Into seeing only what you see

Be free
Release the shame felt from the
Judgments of others

Be free
Get to know your body,
Learn to love how you look

Be free
Feel the sadness, fear, the caring
Let the tears flow

Be free
Your worth is not tied to
Having/doing the latest whatever

Be free
Know and love who you are
You’re God’s gift to the world

Be free
Be love
Beloved

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Ode to a Tree

How do you say goodbye to a tree
One that has sheltered you from the sun
Whose roots have mingled with the the earth
Communicating through fungus to other trees
Whose leaves absorbed water, touched the sky
A tree that’s lived it’s life interacting
with everything and everyone around it

How do you say goodbye to a tree
Whose anchored presence calmed you
Who was home to insects, squirrels, birds
Who embodied the interdependence
of all life, giving and receiving
How do you say goodbye

Maybe you don’t,
Instead seek to embody
the tree’s giving and receiving
Learn about your interconnection with all life
And maybe, with love and gratitude,
Plant another one.

(The Pin Oak was diagnosed with Bacterial Leaf Scorch in 2015. It lasted longer then they predicted. We kept pruning the dead limbs until we couldn’t anymore.)

I Forget

“I sometimes forget
that I was created for Joy.

My mind is too busy.
My heart is too heavy
for me to remember
that I have been
Called to dance
the sacred dance of life.

I was created to smile.
To Love.
To be lifted up
and lift up others.

O’ Sacred One
untangle my feet
from all that ensnares.
Free my soul
that we might
Dance
And that our dancing
might be contagious.”

    -Hafiz

Photo: Archbishop Desmond Tutu

Ode to Love

What’s love got to do with it?
Old Tina asked
You know,

when I‘m
running my hand down
your soft back, relaxing, sighing
while you gently purr.

when I‘m
crying, reading
about someone
hurt, attacked, Dehumanized…

when I‘m
looking at the sky, jaw dropped
at the everyday awesomeness
of changing clouds and sun

when I‘m
feeling Joyful at seeing
a crown of purple violets
growing in the middle of the first snow

when I‘m
showing up and
holding the space
for you to do the same

What’s love got to do with it?
Everything!

To love!
Our connection
Our Life

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This moment

In this moment I am
Angry, grieving, scared

I breath and center
I am fine

But then it starts again

I wasn’t prepared for the
insensitivity, hatred, fear mongering

I doubt if that’s even possible

I’m older and the significance of that
Is now sinking in

Embodying older not just knowing about it

Time to put to the test what I say I believe:
Oneness, love, sacredness of this moment

Accept, listen, trust, focus on the good

I am responsible for the energy I bring into this world. And so it is!

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The Closing of a Year

It’s the end of the year. Here are some words of wisdom I’m taking with me.

Love is for giving.
Forgiving is Love.

All systems that isolate and separate are incomplete and misleading.

Dignity is the capacity to feel my inherent value simply because I exist. Dignity is the seat of agency, of choice.

To be resilient is to be engaged, creative, adaptive and relational.

If a man/woman has shown you who he/she is, why would you expect/want him/her to change? Let them be.

The most important law of the Universe is the law of love because it about relationship. Our Universe is innately related, every part to every other part, and to the whole.
…The Breath of the Universe, Dr.Jude Carrivan

Every act/thought has a consequence to the whole.
I need to be responsible for the energy I bring into a space.

Listen for what is mine to do….and do it.

In Joy Life!

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Be Here Now

So you’re here
What good is it
if you’re unhappy
Be present
This seems
the first step

But then, what’s next?

Accept what is
Stop fighting it, judging it, telling stories about it

Notice what you’re feeling
Where in your body do you feel it?
How do you feel about you when you’re feeling this?
Listen to your inner voice
Let it occur to you,
what’s mine to do?

Release
Breath, move, yell, dance….

So simple
So hard

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