I want to be accepted as I am
My sadness, happiness, anger
Should not shame me
How I am, not how you need me
Not your projections, not
Your judgments
But what if I don’t accept myself?
If I don’t feel my body, it’s
Tightness, it’s pain
If I don’t notice my feelings
Or ask what I need—
I don’t exist.
I still battle going numb, not valuing myself, not noticing myself let alone connecting to others.
I fall into care taking, performing, helping others achieve.
Every time I cycle through this, at the end, I breathe. I let myself “be me” a little more. And, I start another new day.
Expressed so well!
So glad you are You, my friend!
I love you, all of you, just as you are ❤️
This is one of your best insights for my count. That cycle of love is like the washing machine. Around and around cleansing purifying giving off fragrance and perfume of self love and other love. The spiral staircase Dad talked about within King Solomon’s temple represents the upward climb and the truth that it all repeats itself while our awareness expands and we get a fuller broader view of where we’ve been as we look downward Spiritual awareness for me is fueled by my work n accepting all of me as being OK. There is a reason for everything and forgiveness releases the blame/shame game. It’s a trudging intentional moving forward deep down into the darkness of my soul that drives me to climb up into the sunlight with fresh awareness that I’m alright. As I’m learning how to love my Being better my inner peace is becoming magnificent. Thank you for courageously sharing your vulnerability and leaving me feeling connected to you and all the rest. I love you,Barbara
Such an act of openness and vulnerability, dear Barbara. There’s a chant we sing in one chanting group I’m in that I would sing for you right now, if we were together… “I wish I could show you, when you’re lonely or in darkness, the incredible light of your own being!” I can’t remember in the moment where it came from, but my Quaker friend and fellow chanter, Tony Martin, put it to song. : ) But your light shines from deep within you!!