Good Friday

  • “Men are dogs,” he said as he proceeded to tell me I didn’t measure up to all the porn films he’d been watching.
  • “..troops fighting in the restive northern region of Tigray (Ethiopia) are using rape as a weapon of war.” The Week, April 2, 2021
  • “I had to be like a dude to survive…I would really love the opportunity to understand my own femininity in a safe environment. I’ve never had that. ” Sharon Stone from Parade, Sunday March 28-April 4, 2021
  • “…male staffers with the ruling Liberal-National coalition set up a Facebook Messenger group to share photos and videos of sex acts performed inside the Parliament House (Canberra, Australia) The Week, April 2, 1021

I get angry. I rage. My heart breaks. Sometimes I just don’t want to live….not in a world like this.

Who am I as a woman? What is a woman apart from sex, being a mother, daughter, whore, an “it”?…How has the world, lost in sin, defined me? How have I bought in?

“Father forgive them for they know not what they are doing.” Jesus Christ

If Jesus could forgive our ignorance, that of man and woman, can I forgive myself for denying myself, for submitting, for being a “dude” to succeed? Can I forgive the men who play out their conditioned role of domination, sex kings and patriarchy so well?

Good Friday is about love. About Jesus knowing the Divine Truth of who we are, even when we don’t have a clue. This is the first year I’m seeing the crucifixion as hopeful. I can feel my heart soften, unlock, as I ask “What could be better than this world we are currently living in?” And, standing in the midst of this world, have the faith that God might just show me.

Dali’s The Cross

My shift about Good Friday was inspired by A case for Holy Week (no prayers, just this…) by Nadia Bolz-Weber

Comments

  1. Kathleen Matthews says

    This is so powerful, Barbara. Really made me stop in my tracks… and read it again. Much love to you.

  2. Debbie Call says

    Your transparency has a raw elegance, Barb. Your words touch that deep place in me with its truth. And you demonstrate how you transform your rage and fear into hope by remembering what the crucifixion really stands for. As always, thank you for spreading your unique light and love through the world. Keep it rocking’! 💕💕💕

  3. Lee Ann Austin says

    Does the soul have a gender?
    Men have always used rape as a weapon of war, Some men rape other males, not just females.and not just adult versions. We will all have been crucified before we leave this world, one way or another. But, we rise up and we transform via God’s love which dwells within every cell of our Being. Use your energy to transform, to rise and to radiate the divine that is already dwelling within you. Goddess. Love.

  4. Celebrating Good Friday!